Since you are reading this, I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm still kickin. My doctor has decided that since I am still here that I no longer need their care. As of tomorrow, Hospice will have discontinued my pain pump, traded me off to a NP instead of having a doctor, then regular home health will take back over. In 45 days, I will be introduced back into the medical community to be an experiment subject again. I am already passing out due to the intense abdominal pain. My pain pump had it under control, but they started turning the pump down on Monday and it's barely running now. Since Ardell and mom, and dad have noticed that I'm saying things that don't make sense and I'm confused a lot, I'm weak, Sleep a lot during the day and night and am pretty much on a liquid diet....they are scared. To be honest, so am I. I'm going right back to the health I was in before I went into Hospice, which is not good at all. I honestly do not know what these doctors are going to do when they don't have that Seegars woman to experiment medical procedures on, but honestly I don't care. I also hope that they never have to witness or experience the pain and nausea along with other symptoms I have. If they ever did, they might grow a bit of a heart and start helping people instead of digging our graves. The funny part is that they actually think I am going to take this laying down. I am already two steps ahead of them. When I say that I do not want to deal with something, I mean it.