We have blocked many people on our facebook account due to posts and comments being misconstrued by both myself and the people who comment to or back. Personally, I admit that I have hurt an enormous amount of people by my words most of my life, but especially within the last year. I have hurt my family and quite frankly most of my friends.
There's this strange thing that happens to a person's emotions when they are told after over 70 procedures that they have a limited amount of time. Emotions have surfaced in me that I had no idea even existed. Apparently they were just dormant because they are live and kicking now. Yes, I take a lot of things as personal attacks. It could be because when we talk to a person with a chronic or terminal illness, the things we considered funny before suddenly slam us with the realization that there is actually no humor in the statements once considered funny to me. Notice I said, "to me." I do understand that my closest friends and family who supported me throughout my life as I've dealt with Gastroparesis have their own families, lives, and jobs that come first. It took a very very long time for that to sink in. That's why I'm making an effort starting today to put certain people on block so that I keep my eye on my new intended goal and have less negative mental intrusions that cause me to stray from the path I've chosen to take. I'm trying to say, to put it plainly, that I'm hurting my family and my friends left and right and I have to distance myself from it so that I do not continue to do so. Truthfully, I feel very hurt by comments, post, pics and remarks by my extended family and friends. I also KNOW I have returned the favor to all of you. It's exceedingly hurtful to be hurt and hurt back, therefore to my extended family and friends: I love you. I always have. I love you even as you blatantly slap me in the face hourly. I will continue to do so.
Now, I've decided that I am going to be as much as an advocate for chronic and terminal illness as I can until God decides my work here is done. We are also using our page to be advocates for The Lord. Please join me in this effort. Share your struggles and requests of prayer on our page. Believe me when I tell you that we have an excessive amount of prayer warriors on our page. Forget this private nation stuff.... Join Christ for renewed life and become a resident of our PUBLIC GOD Fearing Nation.